Thursday, April 3, 2008

Life isn't going to wait for you to be "ready" - you've got to always be ready to live your life!

That's my new credo. It's kind of silly, I know - but it is something I struggle with. I'm addictive by nature and I have the typical addict mentality . . . I'll quit after I [insert excuse/goal]. I'll fix that when I [insert excuse/goal]. I go through phases where I "hide out" from life and focus on other things. I'm in a never-ending struggle of balance. I'll focus on a work project so much that I'm too tired to take care of my personal life. But heck, sometimes working is so much easier than REAL life . . . !!

I've let myself go. :-( In the past two years, I've put on almost 20 pounds and I've been waiting for a "good time" to deal with it. I'll eat better NEXT week, I'll go back to the gym NEXT month, blah, blah, blah.

Now all this stuff is coming up. I run into a cute boy - I'm asked to be on the news - I'm going to a fun event and need to dip into the skinny side of my closet . . . . AND I'M NOT READY!! Dammit. See where the credo comes in?

It's been a year and a half since I ran the marathon in Greece, which was a HUGE life goal and a HUGE accomplishment for me. It should have reminded me that I can do anything - an attitude I kept alive, right? But no - small injury - big work project - and I let it all go. All that training? I'm back to square one.

But I'm back on the CHANGE path. I started a fitness boot camp on Monday - 3 days a week, 5:30 am for four weeks.

And LIFE wants me to change, too! I had a doctor threaten surgery earlier this year but have decided to handle it myself through better health.

I entered the lottery for the always-full Nike Women's Marathon in October. I said that if I'm meant to run again, my name will be drawn. And the chances were pretty slim. Guess what news I got yesterday? Looks like I'm spending my summer on the canal again this year.

I've got some SERIOUS pounds to shed if my poor knees and feet are going to carry me for another 26.2, plus the hundreds of training miles.

Look out LIFE, I'm getting READY again!


cheapblueguitar said...

One thing I've always admired about you is when you set your mind to something, you do it full throttle. You are going to kick ass at the marathon.

Unknown said...

THANK YOU BG!! Always sending positive vibes - I'm glad YOU believe! See you Saturday!!

Piecake said...

All the best. Staying personally motivated in ALL areas of life isn't easy!

Unknown said...

Thanks, Piecake. You're right . . . sometimes I try to fix too much at once. But I feel pretty good thus far - tobacco free and halfway through my bootcamp program . . . . !! Thanks for the kind words!